''started 2004 - ended 2008 - four years in the making - I was directed to write this story by a power much greater than I - never having read a book - unable to type - or spell - I began to write - the words came - they just flowed - the story began to unfold - a childhood filled with tears - with loneliness - the love from a grandfather - a godfather - the knowledge later on in life - from my dead father how much he loved me - the lonely path I traveled for a life time - the fight for equality at a young age - the transformation from an alcohol drenched body - to becoming a servant of the Master - to follow four principals - Honest - Purity - Unselfishness - Love - to come to a point in life - where there are no mountains to climb - nor valleys to flounder in - to find peace in His Will. I was born 1933 - Raymond Jay Johnston Jr. - Albany New York - at the age four and one half - I was put in an orphanage - near New York City - spent three and one half years there - ran away from the second orphanage I was put in - up state New York - lived with my Grandfather for three and one half years - stayed at times - with my Godfather - he was a member of the Black Hand - the Black Hand preceded the Mafia - started to drink as a little boy - could not read - spell - or write - for a long time - flunked two grades before the fourth grade - excelled in sports - drank more as a teenager - did graduate high school 1952 - at the bottom of the class - three years in the Marine Corp - started an acting career in New York - came to Hollywood 1959 - career going well - drinking also going well.''